LYRICS:
Feel like I just need a space to vent, feel like I could be another name that came n went, feel like I play the bench/
Feel like I should be more grateful I got food on my plate a roof to lay under & enough comin to pay the rent/
Don’t leave me hanging cause I hate suspense/ or put me on a pedestal without a safety net/
If I ain’t Make a good impression let me Make amends, u wanna destroy your enemies then make em friends/
I Just Booked another match, elevate the pen/ they came to witness my internal battle that’s the Main event /
Learning that Line in-between love and hate is thin/ but I’m not Trynna be your Anchor when it’s sink or swim,
Drama w the kult feel like I’m living on an island/ so why I’m feelin Hollow when my actions say I’m solid?/
I ever had a problem then I handle it in private, I lost it, then forgot what I’m lookin for Trynna find it/
My love’s deep, it runs deeper than sub tweets, but I’m off that, let me calm that /
We got enough good in our past it ain’t all bad, Before we too far gone, let me Fall back,
What to do, when u see that pain in Someone’s eyes when they talkin to u, and u try to be there when it’s toxic to you/ When they feel like everybody leave em n they so alone, then they push u away so they can say ‘I told u so’/
When u become the target of someones unhappiness, it happens on accident just collateral damages/ and out of love for em you accept em and adapt to it, but at a certain point you’re just enablin, ur trapped in it/
I ain’t perfect I’m a mess it’s true, but I own my shit and there’s certain shit that I’d never do/
Broken mirrors, I’ve been reflecting too, when there’s nothing left to choose question is your loyalty to them or you?
But Maybe were too stubborn to coexist/ …
That’s why I Be I Be I Be I Be over shit
The world don’t give a fuck about your loneliness, bumpin Mac rollin thru my city on my solo shit/
Shed sm tears then wrote this shit Trynna cope w it, fuck it I’m goin hulk again flexing until my clothes are ripped/
spit that Olsen twins dope, up the dosages uh oh the chauvinist, Captain Roast-a-Bitch posted with ghosts of my past, look over my shoulders when I hold the pen, key to the city, heart of the game im the pulse of it/
I’m Emotionless, Neck with bolts in it, Comfortable in my skin now that’s it’s broken in/
Mac Miller young as shit, said he ain’t wanna join the 27 club then died at 26, that ain’t what he meant/ hit him the night before sayin track one’s my shit, now I wish HE could ‘Come Back to Earth’ what a trip/
Thas a warning, Dad had a stroke i drove from LA to Portland I was there the next morning/ thank god he recovered, grandma Ladonna said the doctor discovered Stage 4, pray for her all we got is each other/
gave me my first rap tape, and I love her for it, I probably wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for her…
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They just want gossip controversy over beats
Don’t even want diss tracks they want Personal receipts,
I’m what u get u take a thinker then u merge it w a beast, life’s a terminal disease, dreams get murdered in my sleep
Watch the company u keep, what u worship what u eat/
Does what u say n what u think Serve the Purpose that u seek?/
swervin in the street, Flourish frm the dirt worms & Serpents, seekin permanent relief, what u see on the surface isn’t deep
Bravery isn’t lack of fear, in terms of what u think/ what takes more strength is having courage when your weak/
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Smtimes I’m with them and I Pretend that I’m alone
Sometimes seein others flaws help me recognize my own/
Like how I put a wall up that separates me from em and with the press of a button I can feel nothin it’s numbing/
So much more than words we say in a discussion, speak w action learn from your Mistakes or u become em/
But We all workin and I’m Conscious of the growth / so when I say u I mean me I’m talkin to us both/
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Produced by Chase Moore. Shot by Kyle “Avocado” Gray & Ben Hammerton for RUINYOURDAY.
